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Wrestling With Depression

Depression is living in a body that fights to survive – With a mind that tries to die.  – Unknown

Today is Bell’s Let’s Talk day. It’s trying to end the stigma of mental illness. I will admit that right now, I’m struggling with depression. I just can’t function right now, and writing, well, it’s not something that I can even summon the energy to deal with.

Part of it is getting past the pain (which is still here, and it seems to hit every year around this time… odd) and the other is getting sleep. I want to be happy. I want to let myself feel loved and cared for. But unfortunately, my brain does not like me. I’d not be leaning into hyperbole when I say that it hates me.

It’s not just a matter of thinking positively. I mean I can be positive – right now I’m absolutely positive that everything just going to go wrong.

Right now the only thing that keeps me going is my family. That’s about it. I need to be there for them. They also know they need to be there for me. Because a big part of dealing with mental illness is support.

I will be taking a bit of a social media break over the next two weeks. I need to indulge in self care and get myself back to feeling well physically and emotionally.

So, please take care of yourselves. If you need help, please, please don’t be scared to ask. You are not alone.